Successfully Unleashing Myself from Being Homesick: Just a Personal Report on The Blog

Exactly a week ago, I set my feet on Tokyo's ground, back to this bustling city. Yes, I was away for exactly a month, spending almost the whole February and early March in hometown. To my surprise, I wasn't that much excited when the airplane landed in Narita airport. "Oh, hello again Tokyo...". I tried to greet the city, which at that time, was covered with clouds. Which made the melancholia within me grow even worse. At the point that I wasn't sure if I was happy or not to be back in the city. Luckily, I could still hold my tears and chose to burst them down once I did my evening prayer in the dorm.

The sleepy one year old me

So, here it goes the story about what happened lately...

Homesick

I was suffering and battling this wicked mind disease for the first and second day after arriving here. I know, it's ultra common for someone to experience homesick. But it never crossed my mind that I would be that kind of someone. I had always thought that I was strong enough to deal with my decision to live far away from home,  most crucially from my mom.  I had always thought that I would instantly be happy, once I set my feet in Tokyo. But this time, I was so wrong.

What made me really surprise about being homesick is that, I never experienced it before. Trust me. During my one year of student exchange program, I was super okay. I was missing mom indeed, but still in a normal way. Last year, which was my second year living in Japan, I was super okay too. I had so much fun living my life here, along with the ups and downs the life had to offer. Turned out, I could still survive happily. Til I realized, I was away from home for nearly a year, even though in my mind I felt like it was only three months.

I wasn't the only one who was suffering. Mom was in the same situation. Just so you know, we both are extremely connected. Once I feel sad, she will definitely feel the same way. And vice versa. We could never lie to each other about our feelings. Because in the end we would just knew, even though we never put them in words.

She said, before, she has never felt that difficult to let me go. It's not that she could always handle my leaving easily, but at least she had always been so strong, so mentally prepared. But this time, none of us had an ample mental prep. During our phone call, we then analyzed what was really happening to us, why we felt so down, why we were so sad despite we both knew that I was leaving for the better, to pursue a higher education in an undeniably good place. Even, it wasn't my first time leaving home!

We then came into one conclusion, which then made us mentally stable again. And I couldn't be happier than being able to be back as the usual me and feeling this way :) I don't know, whether I should categorize "homesick" as a good thing or not. But at least, now I started to feel that home is always the best place, and being at home with mom has always been the best moment. Two things that I nearly took for granted before.

Now, I'm fully back in my normal condition, and back at making my daily to do list again. I couldn't even make one when I was feeling homesick. Since the only thing that I would possibly write is: go home and hug mom. lol.

I'm so glad that I'm able to think clearly again this time. The best part is when I finally found a new research topic yesterday! It was such a huge surprise to me, as I was casually reading a book on the train heading to Shinjuku. New idea came to me without me trying so hard to find one. What a miracle! I can't wait to meet my academic adviser in two weeks, and inform her about this. Hoping my communication with her will just go smoothly, and she agrees on this new topic! 

Anyways, I have some posts pending on the draft. Gotta finalize them as soon as possible, so that I can move on to the other new stories! *feeling energetic*

Guess I'll close this post with a happy birthday shout out to my dad that has just turned 52 yesterday!

Selamat ulang tahun, Papi! <3

Till the next post, guys ;)

xx,

Shabrina.

Hello, Dancing Waves! // One Fine Morning at Glagah Beach

Hiiii, everyone! It's me again... after 4 months of hiatus. How's life? I hope you enjoy living every single day of your life, getting inspired by great people in your surroundings and finding great places to hang out in your town! Mine has been incredibly great, and I can't thank God enough for giving me endless surprises and blessings in life. I grow up more and more, learning and experiencing something new each day. Felt so good in life, really...

Aaaand, finally I finished my study in college for good! Thank God I passed my thesis defense well last month, and now I'm so so so ready for my graduation ceremony and of course, the real life after graduation. I've decided what I'm going to do. I know, everything won't always be as smooth as I wish them to be, but I know that God will always be with me so that I have no reason to be afraid of how everything will turn out in the future. In fact, I've never been as excited as I am now... knowing that I'm no longer a kid, knowing that I'm in a full charge of creating decisions for myself and knowing that everything will just be okay if I do them in a right way :)

You know, college years have been an extremely great time of my life. I may say, it's the besssstttt time I ever spent. Never will I ever forget every single milestone that I had gone through. Every struggle, every sleepless night, every excitement and of course everyone I met in this process. Still can't believe that I finally managed to be in this point even though I know this isn't the final yet. I know there's still a long long way to go....

Well, I hope you enjoy your life as much as I do! When you feel like you're bored with your life, try to count your blessings, write them down, read what you just wrote slowly and don't forget to smile! and, at the end of the day, a self treat won't hurt! Talking about self treat, I just got myself a self treat yesterday! You know, I did it because I had been so sensitive lately... emotional upheaval struck me so bad until I couldn't control myself to behave well in front of people. Especially in front of my mom and best friend, the ones who always have my back every single time. I guess it was all because the 'period' after all. Well, it always leads to sudden emotional changes that I can't afford to control. Too bad I know. Okay, back to my self treat thing. Guess where I went to? :D

TADAAAH!!

Yessss, it's seaaa!! <333

You know, BEACH CAN DO NO WRONG :))) Happiest place on earth I may say.
This beach is the third beach that I visited this year. I can thank God enough, for placing me in this heaven on earth where beaches are just everywhere....

And here I was, enjoying an 8 a.m morning at Glagah Beach located in Kulonprogo, Yogyakarta, Indonesia. Came here with my best travelling and hang out buddy ever, we spent around an hour here, being busy photographing each other alternately. The sun was shining very bright at that time, a hint of warm welcome for us <3

A captivating live show by the waves. All I could do is just sitting still on my VIP stone lol. No one was here, so it was kind of a private beach for me and my friend xD

You must be wondering what these stones are for. Or you're not? :p

Well, I will just tell you right away. These stones, or so-called 'tetrapods' serve as waves crusher. These tetrapods will protect the dry land from the raging waves of South Sea (Indian Ocean) during new moon periods. Not only it is protecting the land, but it's also quite an attraction for taking pictures by laying down or just sitting still on it while enjoying the dancing waves! :) Like what I did, lol.

We didn't really explore every corner of the beach area, as we were too comfortable to be in 'our teritorry'. We just sat and enjoyed the scenery on the tetrapod before eventually decided to leave since the day was getting hotter. What a fun and mind-soothing morning at the beach! <3

I really can't wait for the next beach adventures ;)

Haha sorry for being annoyingly narcissistic in this post. You may google with the keyword 'pantai glagah', 'glagah beach' or whatever as long as it is spelled 'glagah' to check out cooler pics of the beach just in case you're tired seeing me in almost every pic with damn various poses xD But I sincerely hope that you won't think so. Instead, I hope that you could just enjoy this post and become inspired to come here and spend a quality time with your favorite persons! :)

Till the next post, beautiful souls!

xx,

Shabrina